But still I live in the moment as it is

I sometimes think that what will happen in future, will I be independent ?

But then I turn around and forget about it, getting lost in my own guilty pleasure to fly in a world unknown to others. Just live life as it goes I think that's what I am doing. I don't know if it's good or bad, harmful or harmless, how it will effect me later. But I don't even want to find out what will happen! I just want to live in the moment stay where I am nothing disturbing this beautiful dream that will one day crack into thousand pieces. May be I'll be end end up thrown into a bottomless Abyss no end to be seen. But still I live in the moment as it is. 

-deadbeautiful01